b33ncowtpped

i'm a hippy, but i take showers

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Shaken by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Shaken

Pounding through the walls, taking this pressure to a new level, surrounded until you shut down. Face to face, shattering these words, just one more step, and pass by. Truth seems inconsistent, Lines of jumbled letters continue, although nothing proves real. Images break free, and what hides under this, does not feel, as what you say. May you fight for you, shaking off the slightest thought, of me. Hear these words, let them move within you, sooner or later, I will be done. Just be quiet, and feel this tear, made through your hurt, forced upon me.

Carry me home by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Carry me home

Taking all of this, right out up under me, you think I didn't notice. My eyes are open, your heart is shut down, still broken without love. Coming toward your body, you force me aside, only to take my pride. Carry me home, where I know who I am, shaking with doubt. Happy with pessimism, striking down all hope, stand until you fall. Just because you've stripped me, doesn't cease me from knowing the truth, hide no more. Come forward- with your heart.

Shifting by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Shifting

Somehow, still here. Killing for the most, Standing directly over you, Yet you do not flinch. I am here, Waving my hand, Still looking away, As if I am just a moment. Claiming to know, You step aside, Not holding your breath, Surely relaxed. Breaking apart, twisted with mercy, seemingly so awful, washing away with the tide. Capturing my pulse, this blows through me, evermore here, avoiding me. Keep rigid, yet helpless, hold on with no loss, breathing in and out. Aim higher, come closer, still nothing, sinking through us.

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Tears of Blood by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Tears of Blood

Tears of blood, the pain swells up... bursting out into the open, not oblivious to anyone. Bear the needle of pain, piercing your neglected heart... letting it take you over, no stopping it now... mind & soul lifting, filled with confusion, appearing empty & helpless. Fate gravitates your body... & shouts no more innocence, relieved to have no more control. You are now in someone else's control, just let go... there will be no more pain, no more tears... no more strength, just keep falling...

-far away- by b33ncowtpped, literature

_pain vs. love_ by b33ncowtpped, literature

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_pain vs. love_

You touch my skin, My thoughts have been exposed, You know everything... You love me, And you know me. Not once, Haven't I told you, How much I love you, What I think, Or how I feel. You're voice sweeps away, My negativity... The lonliness of my heart, And my outer shell. You brush away who they want me to be, And make it known who I am. But will you still be there, As the crimson red drips down my arm, As I try to defeat the pain, And when I have drown in my love for you...? Will you still be there When I make everything so fake, When nothing makes sense..

Let go... by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Let go...

He's sure to let go... not be there to comfort you, be the one that you can count on... take a breath and relieve the pain... let it all go away... lift up from you heart & it's sure to break... release the worries and hard times, so many cold lies... ready to collapse... in the arms of the protector, strain yourself to hold back... from seeing all he has done...

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I sit and wait by b33ncowtpped, literature

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I sit and wait

As i sit here, the mascara funs down my face, and tears jerk my eyelashes, wandering down my cheek. I think about you, and I miss you, I know that I will give up anything for you... I think about how you have helped me, and how you have made me laugh, then I wonder who else has also done this... and it comes to me... no one has. No one has forgiven me as you, no one has put a spark in my day like you, no one has shared their love for me, like you have... confusion, hate, and pain fill my soul, I must overcome these... throughout getting thru these, I have hurt you. My own being ceased to exist, and you can't see beyond.

how you transformed me... by b33ncowtpped, literature

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how you transformed me...

I will stay with you- wherever you go, there is no escaping now, for you will show what you've done. admit that you tortured me, inside and out- prove that I am innocent, which will take away part of my pain. Lift this burden, off of my shoulders, bring me back to who I really am, my true being, for I have a part to play, in my life, which you will not control. I will not let you any closer, you ruined my being, I come to realize, that I don't know who I am. I no longer know, who I truly was, who I started with, is not who I am now- it has taken over me, like a life threatening disease. It eats away at my mind, which

Broken- by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Broken-

...these emotions are taking over, what you call my soul, for there is nothing left of me... you have taken it all. my love has been broken, because you don't seem to care- fill my heart with coal, and rip it to shreds... it is not worth it anymore, i will no longer waste my time, just to please you. ending it all won't help, ending it all won't matter... i have chosen to give up, but i shall still be there... useless and pathetic, nowhere to go... burning in deep, dark desire, to kill the voice inside, but i will never forgive you, for taking this from me... taking my soul and being, and branding my

your soul by b33ncowtpped, literature

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your soul

-the beauty of your soul, ignites my curiousity- to know your inner self, & who you are hiding. the truth of your mind- is to open up to me, & trust my words. embrace the love I give, & feel it's beauty...it is real. but I cannot give my love to you, if I odn't know who you are. don't let there be a shield, to protect yourself from my pain. there will not be any more, of this hurt... so if you will- expose the trueness of your self.

Lift Me Up by b33ncowtpped, literature

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Lift Me Up

Let me fly with you, so I can see what you see, the magical life of all. show me the way, & embrace my spirit, as you lift me up into the clouds. my eyes have opened, opened with love & support... that you have given. & as we fly, I will show you- how to survive below us, where pain & truth exists- intertwined with evil. but here and now, we don't need to think about that, just keep floating in peace. where all is beautiful, & flawless... it seems so surreal, yet believable. I won't leave this place, can we just keep flying... where everything is perfect? I can live without pain and lessons, so...let's stay here.

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Current Residence: in your shorts
Favourite cartoon character: anyone from Family Guy cuz they have butt chins...lol
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b33ncowtpped

Mar 9, 2007

homophobia

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Taken from Toadsmoothy2's and Madness13's journal. I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wi

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b33ncowtpped

Jan 15, 2007

New Beginnings

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So many new things are happening in my life right now... -My trip to Africa is coming up -High School Graduation -Grad Trip -Moving out for college -The new love I have found with Logan I have been very nervous about the future, but I know that I cannot keep worrying about that. As seniors, I think we should focus on the moment, otherwise we will go mad! :frustrated: "Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." -Buddha Life is beautiful right now, so much to enjoy. Close to being out there on our own, yet far enough away to still be sane. As I was saying earlier, I have found so

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b33ncowtpped

Nov 16, 2006

speaking bull shit

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i wish people would just think before they speak. think about what they are saying. think about how it can effect the future. think about other possibilities. just fucking think. i honestly don't want to listen to anyone right now, because all i have heard lately has all been bull shit. thanks.

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howellomaha

Feb 17, 2012

Hi! My son, Mitchell Kowalewski, is a big DeviantArt fan. He has entered a Union Pacific Commercial remake contest celebrating their 150 years. Could he have your help: Could you vote on his video at this link. [link] Currently he is in 4th place (out of 27 entries) The video is only 1 minute long so it will only take a moment of your time. He has used some of his favorite train photos so you may recognize his work-his D.A. name is Ookami-Oni. If you click on the link: [link] it will ask you to LIKE the video. It is that easy and fun. Thank you very much. We appreciate it.

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insaneone

Jul 20, 2007

hey was just visiting people so hi...how are things?

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heeeeeeeey shal how are you?????

im ivan do you remember me? why you never are conected in messenger?
i wish the best and wara wara la cuchara i hope you are 0k shal great loooooong distance friend lol i have in my ipod the song that syou send me the last year --- the postal service

remotecntrl12

Aug 26, 2006

why wont you talk to me?